Introspection 9/12/97 
(Marc Bailey)
Watchin the free wind blowin’
Behind a dirty pane of glass,
How different was it yesterday
Although a thousand years have passed.
Lightnin’ touches ground
And the quaking begins,
Jarring loose the memories
Of imaginary childhood friends.
And I watch the Earth pass by
All the flames that were my life.
Then I leave them again.
Though a love for life evades me
I’m standin’ on hallowed ground,
Cause I see my God’s love for me
When I dare to look around.
I used to see life in riddles
Couldn’t find the reason why,
Searchin’ outside myself for somethin’
that would make me feel so high.
Today there’s such a difference
Can’t begin to tell you why,
Just looked deep within myself
You know God was there all the time.
It’s a voice so strong within me
And with me all the time,
I feel the warmth so deeply
From the brightest light that shines.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
Prisoner 9/17/89
(Marc Bailey)
Looking for answers
emotions unfold,
Seeking utopia
I wait to behold.
Dreams of future
visions of past,
pray for today
a meaningful task.
Questing for knowledge
hiding in ignorance,
morals an issue
serving my penance.
Breaking for freedom
Alcatraz of existence,
I am the judge
deciding my sentence.
Courtroom of catalysts
enlighten the cause.
Pleading insanity
displaying my flaws.
Captured by life
Timid of death
A fortunate soul
Whose train just left
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
Sidney R.I.P. 1/1/96
(Marc Bailey)
Gone, my little helpless soul
my arms cradle empty air.
My curses fly to heaven’s door
though there’s no one listening there.
Your memories playing endlessly
in my cinemascope mind
Your songs ring in my ears
as I cry these tears tonite.
I never want to love again
the void just can’t stay filled.
The love and joy that I once had
was instantly killed.
I’d never wish this pain on anyone
it’s bitter and without end
Just looking forward to another day
without my best friend.
Why must we give the angels
back when it’s their time to fly?
Why must I hold on this way,
Another heart wrenching goodbye.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
Hardheaded 4/10/01
(Marc Bailey)
Bruised and tormented, standing in the rain
Dyed to match the nameless wave
My faceless past- a haunted grave.
You want to make the world your own
So sad you might wind up all alone…
Cheaters never win, so let them try again
I don’t care…
‘ Cause in these eyes- it’s all the same.
No one to blame; rules don’t make the game,
I just don’t care…
‘ Cause in these eyes- it’s all the same.
Life’s empty lessons, those bitter pills
Poisonous mementos,
Carved so deep, from learning slow.
Shine in moments of anger, feel so alive
Show them all the ugly truth,
The blessed pain- another bruise.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
Little Doll 4/1/98
(Marc Bailey)
A thousand years you waited
A thousand tears you cried,
Waiting for love’s return
Wondering if it had died.
A battle for buried treasure
Elusive Thanksgiving
Through miles of stormy weather;
Forgotten reasons for living.
Murky waters show nothing at all
No hope, no light, no way,
Murky waters didn’t soften your fall
Once submerged, you were forced to stay.
Little Doll did I break you?
Your legs shattered no longer dance,
Oh Doll I just want to wake you
God please give me another chance.
The nights of splendid devotion
The stars were hung for us,
My love promised endless devotion
My words gave you reason to trust.
Your broken heart in my hands
Your broken legs lay before me,
My broken promises fill the air
You’re stuck with the words “I’m sorry.”
Murky waters didn’t heed your call
They tried to drown you.
Little Doll can you hear me?
I realized too late,
Oh doll can’t count all you did for me
Can’t escape this weight.
Little Doll you’re so lovely
But you just can’t see
Oh Doll I’ve made a discovery
Those murky waters were me.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
Threads in the Balance 3/31/92
Wait! Before you run and hide
I need to see just one more time
The sunshine on your face
Lends beauty to disgrace
…Leaves me behind.
Knew it wouldn’t last
The carefree moments - now our past
And yet I had to play anyway
…Sure wish you’d stay.
Treacherous caves of aloneness are
More comforting by far and then
The dawn that comes on you my love
Would necessitate a memory of
…the years we’ve known and lost.
Tried to tell you from the start
I’m not the man you thought I was
My life hangs by threads in the balance
and conscience turns my soul to dust.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
Hide 1/30/96
Yes, I told you
That your sick mind would make me cry,
And yes I knew you
those twisted thoughts that build inside.
Been there before you
I see with knowing eyes of light,
The sheer frustration
You feel will cling until you die.
At least inside.
I can see you
Over in the corner killing time,
Why did you come here
And let these people see you hide.
You are alone
Whether as one or in a crowd,
the walls around you
Make your thoughts seem so loud.
And they’re too loud - I can’t hear you.
Yes I told you
Not to feed those monsters in your mind,
Inferiority
A non-conformist’s badge of pride.
My badge for life, I pay the price.
Have I convinced you
That there’s another on this road?
You’re not alone
And we will never fit their mold.
Their bought and sold - doin’ what they’re told.
Not like the rest
(The chosen ones)
I’m different inside,
(so dark and cold)
Society’s chosen ones
Have so much to hide.
I’ll never fit in
Their edict bites
They can’t see what my eyes see
And so they must hide.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
The Forgettable Ones 9/92
(Marc Bailey)
Leo sings his song
high above the smoky waters.
His vast requiem of mirth
flowing out with the tide.
Sadly, he is heard by no one.
The traffic unaware of his anguish
quickly passes him by.
The next day some will read his name
as the media sells his soul.
But few will remember, I’ll never forget.
The name of Leo.
Father of two and son of many,
His eyes see past the surface of time
that has passed him by.
His life but a pebble making no waves
Lest a ripple he shall see
The startling end to his days.
Instead of pity,
Charity,
it’s Brotherhood.
(comin’ alive inside us)
It’s not money
don’t have to bleed
the forgettable ones livin’ in the street.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
Waiting for the Sun 7/30/96
(Marc Bailey)
Chic engravings on my bathroom tile
Golden fixtures on my sink,
And looking deep into those hopeless eyes
The mirror lies again.
Trembling fingers hold my razor tight
Shave without seeing that face,
Can’t realize what lurks inside
Who occupies that space.
Livin’ all alone inside a crowd
You can’t fathom my pain,
I drink to cope with boredom and depression
And still feel I’m insane.
I’ve built a life that you might like to have
My secretary’s a 10,
My wife is beautiful, my kids get all A’s
My Lexus runs like a dream.
I think a lot of what you think of me
Wanting so much for you like me,
I look inside for self assurance and find
Self-hatred comes more naturally.
I fill my life with all the things that I want
And work so hard to feed the family,
yet all the toys can never fill up the hole
Because inside I am so empty.
Giving up my pain is just so hard to do
Didn’t know it was up to me,
Til’ some good friends helped me give up the juice
They’re happy, joyous and free.
Chorus
I found my life in a bottle
Lick these wounds with a hundred-proof tongue,
Lived out my life inside these barroom walls/those
Waiting for the sun
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
Hammer Lane 9-11-01 7:15am
(Marc Bailey)
Flyin’ down the road and I’m late for a gig;
Lookin’ at the back of your rickety rig.
Man, I wonder why you want to block my way;
You’re lookin’ in your mirror like you’ve got somethin’ to say.
Can’t imagine what you’re thinkin’, is safety what’s on your mind?
Are ya’ sayin’ that seventy is fast enough?
Well listen up lady, here’s the bottom line.
(Get out, get out, get out,)
Of the hammer lane, (get out get out get out).
(Get out, get out, get out,)
You know you’re blockin’ my way, (get out, get out, get out…)
I know you see me gaining like you’re going backwards,
You’ve been tryin’ to pass a car for somethin’ close to an hour.
You think that you’re a courteous and safe survivor,
Gotta let you know I’m not that kind of driver.
Can’t imagine what you’re thinkin’, is safety what’s on your mind?
Are ya’ sayin’ that seventy is fast enough?
Well listen up man cuz’ here’s the bottom line.
(Get out, get out, get out,)
Of the hammer lane, (get out get out get out).
(Get out, get out, get out,)
You know you’re blockin’ my way, (get out, get out, get out…)
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
Guardian Angel 8/25/92
(Marc Bailey)
I’ve never known such serenity
since entering the light of the Lord.
His gifts far greater than wings to birds
and the depth of truth in His word.
My thanks to dear old St. Christopher
or Jesus Himself the Man,
the one who knew that I needed you
and made you a part of the plan.
Life was gray, night or day
until you were sent to me Love,
roses had no sight or smell
‘ til your assignment to me,
my guardian angel.
The sun, it shines for you Love
and I thee cherish till death,
my heart thy know is true Love
with each angelic breath.
My gratitude spans a light year
for God’s most precious gift,
this heavenly soul before me now
who caused this joy to live.
O’ captainess of my sailing ship
thou art my compass for life,
through God and you I trust we’ll sail
beyond the endless tide.
Heaven-sent vision of loveliness
who makes my dreams come true
Karla my guardian angel
this song from my heart - for you.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
New Name 6/17/98
(Marc Bailey)
Realizing I am in a daze
Can’t break free of this surreal haze
Thoughts are buried in their bloody graves
I’m once again alone.
Think my mind is a defensive soul
Protecting me from falling in the hole
Culling thoughts that are beyond control
‘ Til there are none.
Watching movies for the hundredth time
‘ Til I know all the actors lines
Throwin’ away all my precious time
Life of the living dead.
Tried a shrink or two to no avail
Prescription drugs always fail
Illegal substances landed me in jail
This is what I said
Can’t imagine any other way
Wake up to find a different day,
With freedom as my new friend
Who would I be then?
My life’s a sin of omission
Can’t seem to break tradition
Like a BB through the brain
Gotta find a new name.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
The Optimist 6/11/96
(Marc Bailey)
Abomination so fluorescent
Discounted once again,
Lower than whale sh*t
No one can befriend.
Sinking ever lower
Exploring depths anew,
Tried to stop this expedition
Before it broke through.
Self pity or depression
What’s the difference,
Can’t see inside or out
Only serve this sentence.
Bullets go much further
Than Prozac on my tongue,
Better to act sooner
Than wait until it’s done.
Lord knows it ain’t easy
windows fogged to hell,
Can’t see what lurks ahead
So we scream “All is well.”
Lord know it ain’t easy
Fallin’ way too fast,
Nothin’s makin’ sense now
Nothin’ that’ll last.
© 1998 Orcastration Music (ascap)top
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